Um... I'm coming off drunk.

I'm sobering up.. I've just got home from the Races that I originally was a scrooge about. Had a great drunken time, met a cute guy in the crowd, but he went to wee and I never saw him again =( Then I saw a guy that I used to date that dumped me for another girl. Lots of flirting and all that going on, but he walked away too. Hrmm??

First ever boyfriend was messaging/calling me trying to find out where I was, and by the time I gathered enough reception on my mobile, he had gone over to Rydges (eww) and said he'd call me later. Yeah ok, After an offer to come to my place you'd rather stay at Rydges, I think you are quite "Bros before Hoes." Grr. Men.

My good mood

Hellloooo everyone..! I am feeling friggin fabulous today. My flights are booked to Melbourne..! It's Friday..! I have an awesome fun-packed weekend ahead of moi. So many things going on. I'm opening up to hanging out with different people, opening up to different social situations. 

First-ever boyfriend boy and I are still talking. By talking, I mean texting. Everything is going fine. Eased up on the intense texting. I'm not reading into anything ! Finally..!! He is being very sweet. And I have been granted the pet name "princess." Hrmm? Now that's more like it. He is trying to tee up a meeting tomorrow at the races. We'll see.

Bus boy (I met him on..the bus!) started chatting to me on Facebook chat.. Haven't spoken to each other in ages. About Bus Boy: We hooked up ages ago..after he left his number for me on the seat opposite. We had seen each other so frequently on this bus and started playing little staring games. And then he gave me his number. But anyways. Fun to start with.. but..he was quite..uh..religious. It was scary. I know that everyone has their own beliefs but it was just too much imposed on me. And I felt like I was corrupting him or something everytime I saw him. Things turned awkward, and the only way for him to get the hint was to be cruel. I didn't wanna do it but had to. I once compared our little fling to me being the devil and he being almighty God-it just wasn't gonna happen. Lol.

So anyways, chatting away, and he asks if I wanted to catch up in the city sometime next week. Thinking this was harmless, I thought "What the hell?" and agreed. Then he started carrying on about sending me flowers and all that junk. And then I thought "F@#$!" And then he ended the conversation with "xoxo". No way mate. Don't be starting that. I gave him my other number I don't use anymore.. Lol.. I mean I have it on me all the time.. I just don't want to pass on the super close number. Too much of an invasion on me. He is seriously lovely though. Which sucks. We once discussed why guys treat girls the way they do, and he told me that an ex-girlfriend had told him simply "that girls just want to be cherished." And it's so true. That's all we want. We want to be appreciated. And he understood this statement so well. Maybe now that it's been like 5 years or so things could be different..?

So this should be interesting. I won't lie.. I want flowers delivered to my work.. lol. =)

Hrm what else is happening. OOOOH OOOH..! I spoke to Footy Boy on Facebook today. Because I'm in such an awesome mood, I thought I would initiate convo. He hesitated at first..(well at least the little Facebook typing icon thing lead me to believe that..lol) and just started talking about how we were, what was doing for the weekend. And it was pretty boring. He asked about work..I told him how much I hate it. And like he replies

"Sweet sounds good. We'll gotta go, have a great weekend. If you wanna catch up for a drink or sushi let me know.."

Well mate, If you hadn't said "Sweet sounds good" my intolerable suffering at work, then maybe I would've called you, but you obviously weren't reading hard enough, and so it ain't gonna happen.

I presume he wouldn't really blink twice at this prospect though.

Anyways

That's all the juicy juice I got going for myself. I have been tagged by ScoMan though..! About my "perfect blends"

So here goes..

1. Sunny afternoon with cool breeze and the smell of Mulberries = Perfect walk home from the train station.

2. Finding a designer piece which has been marked down the the absolute extreme and the only one left is your size = Priceless.. And meant to be.

3. Hot sand + the first step into the ocean = Ahhh

4. The Hills, Sunset Tan, Keeping Up With The Kardashians or Girls Of The Playboy Mansion + whole day marathon = Bliss

5. Driving up the coast with the breeze blowing full throttle in your face + the perfect mix of beach songs that conjure up awesome memories of the coast = Freedom.

6. Ice cream + Ice Magic = Yummers..!

7. Ferrying it around Sydney Harbour + Getting the perfect seat at the front = Worth the 12 buck fare

That's all I got right now..! 

Oh and

8. Running down the stairs at the station + just making the train by a millisecond =  Woo Hoo..!

I taggity tag Tiffs, Kendall, Michie, College Boy.

MWAHS..!

ok, so it's not that bad..

Pardon my laziness, am just very buggered from work and the mentally challenged boss from hell. And by mentally challenged I mean she is a crazy, manipulative little cow. I will tell all about it tomorrow night whilst waiting for my spray tan to dry.
For now, using my mobile because I can't physically be bothered pulling my Mac out of its pretty pink leather case. And pardon the spelling and the different font as well.

Anyways..
I didn't really "fuck" (pardon my french) up. I think I just went into assumption hyper drive. I do wish to be in the same shithole as College Boy is though-might make decisions a lot easier? Lol.

Me and first-ever boyfriend boy are now talking after a very heated conversation re: the intent of texting every 5 seconds. He thought I was telling him to shove off (I seriously wasn't) but I thought..well..actually I don't know what I thought and that's when I started getting urked about the intent of our "friendship". Its really weird.. Sometimes he plays dumb (well, at least I think he does?) and other times he's just straight up. Im not sure if he's trying to be just friendly or funny or being cryptic. I can't suss it out. My friend (we will call her Doolie) keeps telling me that I've already started the digging of the grave for this little "relationship" and that I need to stop. I can't help it if I like closure.
Closure's fun.

Anyways he keeps up the messaging and keeps asking me when we're going to see each other again yada yada. I think I might just make him suffer a little while. Is that mean?



He he he.

Just an update:

I have totally fucked things up. 

Entering the state of Confusion; Population 1

Stay tuned. This may end badly.    :/

A lil bit more clarity

Well, after doing some thinking.. I have realised that I have some sincere feelings for this guy.. BUT. I am well aware of what he has said previously re: relationships/friends, so I'm gonna tread lightly. I've been told by one of the dentists that I should just go with the flow, and make this guy work for it. If he really wants something more from me, and wants to pass the whole bros before hoes bullshit, then he will make the move. But until then, I'm gonna just take it easy and keep the options open.

I'm very excited for this weekend..! 

Thursday night - Spray tan

Friday night - Chinese and pj's night with Ice Magic.

Saturday - Girls Day Out at the Races.. horse racing.

Saturday night  - After party after Races

Sunday - Luna Park with my baby sister.

Woo hoo action packed..! 

And maybe..just maybe.. I'll meet the (business)man of my dreams at the Races.

OOooh ooh..! Excitement..! 

Dating politics are effed..!

I have some juiciness..!

In a VERY weird twist of events.. I ended up hooking up with my first ever boyfriend.. ever..! We ha been talking for a while, there's been some harmless flirting here and there. But I never saw it coming. Don't get me wrong, the texting frequented to 4am in the morning texts, but waffles brought us together. I brag that I make the best waffles..! And I had to prove myself, I made some awesome banana and chocolate waffles..! And they worked. We ended up spending the whole day together (which is something I haven't experienced in a very LONG time) we went to this lake area where we went bushwalking and sat on these massive rocks hanging over the edge of the lake in the sun.. It was so nice to have some decent company. Then he started throwing sticks at me. And I knew it was on.

Then we ended up back at my place in my room watching Hot Fuzz.. And all we did was talk through it. Then he started the tickling (I am very ticklish) and then we just kinda ended up together. It was really weird. 

It felt so good getting cuddles. I haven't had them in a long time. 

But then.. after he left, my mum to give me her opinion. And it hurt. He is kinda not my type (Do I only seem to attract these types lol?) and my mum brought up the fact that we're so connected by our friends and family (we're all good family friends) and that we're all gonna know each other business and it's just gonna be all gossip. And THEN she brought up the whole "Are you just getting desperate because you haven't got anyone on the side besides him. He's not your type. He's a nice boy but I dont think so..?"

And that killed me. And it also make me do a second thought. What if I am being desperate..? Is this settling for second best? All these thoughts keep running through my head, and I can't get them out. He's been texting me all day. And I love it. But what if I am acting desperate and don't realise until it's too late? Hurt him in the process. Dump him (for the second time..lol). Maybe i might see him again and nothing's there? What the hell do I do? I really don't want to hear anybodies opinions. He's very very sweet. Surprisingly.. But he is a party boy.. And has made it clear he is nowhere near settling, he's mates come first and all of that bros before hoes yada yada.. And I am the EXTREME opposite. I want marriage and babies. And slightly soon. If possible.. Lol.

So when I asked him what the go is with us last night, he said that we're just gonna run with it and see where it takes us. What does that mean?

What the bloody hell do I do...?

I hate the state of confusion..

I also went out on Satdy night, and met absolutely NO ONE..! Hahaha...! And at the place that it was, I'm kinda glad.. so friggin seedy hey. There was my big bang into single life. Lol..!