There's a Kanye song that springs to mind..
"Hey hey hey hey.. don't say you will..unless you will..then play you will..I pray you will.."
Urk. Men.
I think I just need a fresh start. A new guy; not an old one.
Footy boy and I went on a "date" last night.. the chemistry was amazing. It was all very cute. He even texted me 5 minutes after leaving my place to tell me what a fab night he had.. and he had said he would message me..maybe come see me today.. but yeah he didn't, no surprises there! I'm glad I wasn't fooling myself this time around. I am a bit disappointed.. as if you couldn't tell.
He's messaging me now though, only because I initiated. I was feeling restless. I'd rather just do it to get what I want.
But I never get what I want..
Anyways. I had to vent. Now back to positive-ness. 5 positive things: I am happy that I'm not holding my breath on this one like usual. I'm happy I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket, like usual. I am happy that I didn't throw myself at him, like usual. I am happy that I held back, unlike the usual. I am happy that the guards have stayed up.
They must stay up for this one. He's not wriggling he's way back in again without a fight!
Note to Prince Charming: I am still waiting.
hehe.
