Me & You, Version 5.0.

I've been so lazy and so all over the place since my last blog.

Everything had been on/off with Woobie for quite a while..and things were looking grim..

But after being so strong and stepping away from it all, and letting ourselves breathe and reflect, we are together. And I am very much in love. We still have our little issues, and sometimes things are far from perfect..but every other time it is.. perfect. And I'm loving his companionship and friendship. He makes me happy.

Finally, huh?

Ah romance..

I am so happy.

I really REALLY like this guy.

Really really.

Le sigh.

Back at your door..

So I've managed to somehow slip back into comfortableness and straight back into the arms of my tangled lover. .

He's magnetic to me..I am so drawn to him and cannot-and will not-stay away..everything feels so right when we're together. When there's no issue or dramas, of course..

Everything would be so perfect if he dropped the baggage.. Part of me just wants to shake some sense into him and make him see that things don't have to be like this..that the dramas we have to go through and what we punish ourselves with can be avoided if he just hardens up and sorts it out..It's easier said than done of course....and one can only make these changes if one is prepared to do so..

But is he prepared to lose me if he isn't willing to make these changes?

And am I prepared to lose him?

I don't think I am..

Sigh.

So I take that back..

I'm back to being single. Again.

I would love to say that's a world record for me but it's already been done-the record was 4 days. Pat on the back to me.

So I still can't really explain the delicious mess that I shared with Woobie, but just know this. That it was deliciously messy. And I'm still head over heels. Though of course it is fading.. I'm slightly on standby in a way (by choice, you'll understand when I finally explain myself) and I'm just kind of at a standstill. Also by choice.

I would love to say that I'm in love with him. Some part of me is I think. A tiny tiny bit. I can't let go. I don't wish to let go. Everything has been amicable, there's no one to blame. That's what's so hard. Usually when a relationship ends, it's because it's "broken," and someone's usually hateful or upset...it's easier to make the cut when you want them dead. Pretty much.

But this is different. Of course it is.. We're still friends. He needs time to realise what he wants and needs time to get back on his feet and just be happy in his own skin. I understand. But at the same time I wish I could be selfish and and change everything myself.. I want him and want to be with him now, and not in a week or a month or a year.

And I also don't want anyone else. It's like I have blinkers on. I'm only seeing him. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not. Le sigh. I just want everything to work out.

Anyways, something this weekend has brought to my attention: Nice Boys.

Why oh why do the good girls always want the bad boys?!

We always whinge about the bad boys, get hurt by the bad boys, cry about the bad boys. Yet when we have a nice boy, we are not even considering him. We aren't attracted. We look straight through them. What is it with that?!

I know a nice boy who could give me everything that I could ever want and need. We'll call him..Clipper. He's so sweet and caring. A gentleman who opens the door for me. Fun loving and silly. Deep and mysterious.

But I've put him in the "I think of you as like my brother..and I don't even have a brother" File.

I kinda hate myself for that.

I shouldn't.

It's always the way right?

Marital Status : In a relationship

Yes. Yes I know. Very exciting news.

It's disgustingly overwhelmingly complicated but I am so overjoyed and happy and thankful and embracing it all, which totally rules out the complications.

You know how those couples say "When you just know, you just know."

I think I can say that now.