Number deleted.

"I've lost my way..

It's hard to find it through

I see the night but I've lost all sight of you"

Deleted Dentist Boy's number. Gone. 

Although things haven't actually formally been called off.. it feels

 as though it's over. No replies to texts, no calls..nada.

It's been me initiating texts these days, and I've been so adamant to myself and my needs that I wish to be chased.. not the one chasing. I've had enough.

And although it hurts, I think it's probably for the best.. I'm not gonna waste my feelings on this person. It doesn't seem like he's wasting any feelings on me.

But I know when I get to this strong point he will probably do a turn around and be good (it's normally that way when I give up in these situations) so I guess we will just have to see what happens.. Grr.

You know how much I hate that shit. Lol.

P.S My mouse looks so sick...I don't want her to die :(

Going back into the wild

I can actually say for the first time that I have no guys in my life right now..well not the romantically inclined type anyways.

It's feels kinda weird.

 I can definitely classify myself as being single for nearly 2 years now. But I've always seemed to have male company and one time or another. It hasn't felt like I've been entirely single, like I've lived the single gal's life. Maybe I did go out time to time..But it wasn't ever fun. There was always drama drama drama..!

It was a devastating break-up. It killed me deep down, and it took a lot to get over. I did some regrettable things in order to deal with what had happened. I look back, and remember feeling that I just stood stilll whilst things were in motion around me. 

I think I had guys constantly to keep myself from remembering my ex. There was a stage where I realised I hadn't gotten over him, and did end seeing someone. But I just kept it up. The things we do to ourselves. And I've only just learnt my lessons.

Anyways, so I think it's time for me to start living this single life up. I've been in hibernation due to the Winter, but now we're getting closer to Summer..! It's heating up, and what not a better excuse to wear a pretty dress..? And flirt.   

I can't wait to start blogging the dates.. Haha..! This is gonna be a fun ride.

It all starts tomorrow night.

OOOhh venture..!