I..

really flippin like this guy. I want him here now. 

Is missing him..

Urk.. 

This is what I HATE about falling head over heels over a boy..

The missing part.

He came over today on my day off to keep me company.. argh I wish didn't have to go. We had a lovely bludgey day just spending time together, watching movies and laughing at Jerry Springer..

It's kinda shit though.. I'm still not 100% how I feel. Maybe I've gotten too comfortable and this is really how I feel about him-I like him, but I'm not gonna go crazy and psychotic on the poor darling. At the same time: I want that cute gushy feeling. I want to smile about every little damn thing. I think maybe because he is not overly-romantic that I have subsided the behaviour. He's told me that he is romantic..He just needs to get comfortable with me which is understandable. He's getting better, more open. I'm just letting him take his time. I'd say I must like him because normally I wouldn't even give them a second to take their time.. it's my way or the highway baby!!

So - I won't get to see him until next Tuesday..he's working all weekend for a few weekends in a row which sucks. He won't be going to Good Vibes anymore (:/) so I will totally miss him on Valentine's Day (yes I know a stupid day but a good excuse to get pressies) then it's his birthday on the 17th which is my day off but I'm having my wisdoms out.. (yikes) soo I'm not sure what's gonna happen. But I do plan to buy him a pre-Valentines/Birthday pressie to give to him on Tuesday.. I'm prob getting ahead of myself but meh. I have positive vibes about this. 

That's all that matters, right? 

I didn't do it

I didn't call.

Are you proud of my strength?

.

I just miss him so much. Why? Cos I just do.  

Upside down..

Boy you turn me

Inside out

And

Round and round

So after seeing this guy for 4 days in a row and then going without for 3 days..I'm having withdrawals.. 

I miss him.. I miss the way he stares at me. I miss.. pretty much everything. Everything that you could possibly miss in a person you've only known for a week.. lol.

I'm wondering what he's doing.. if he's thinking of me. It's his birthday today.. I've already sent him a birthday text. I kinda wish I could've seen him.

I get to give him 20 birthday kisses next time I see him. I think I can deal with that.. ^-^

I'd love to know where this is going to go. Just a sneak peek would be much appreciated. So I could know in advance how to compose myself if anything was to happen.. 

Like Marilyn once said..
"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left..."

I'd like to know if I should get into that mind frame anytime soon..just for my own well being.

I know..I'm being a worrybear.. haha.