Windy, windy day.

Sorry have been m.i.a - 

things have been steady.

Nothing to report! I'm not sure if I'm happy about that or not!

No lows at all in the past 2 weeks..Shrink is going to be pleased.

No boys-well let me correct that-there was Footy Boy-but I think it was over before it even really started, something which I picked up on the day after our dinner. We were supposed to have met up again last night, but he never made concrete plans and details. We agreed on Friday night, but he kept asking me about Saturday night, Sunday night, every night that wasn't 

good for me, then we kinda agreed again on Friday night, only to even get a text or a call. I put myself to bed at 8pm because of sheer exhaustion, and didn't even think twice about him. I wasn't even bummed. How good is that?

I reckon he'll contact me today. That's just the kind of (loser) guy he is.

Anyways.. ooh that's right..

I've bought a Pomeranian Puppy..she is soooo pretty. I get her at the end of June. I think she'll dissolve a lot of my loneliness. Which I think is fab. I can't wait.

Everything's coming up Danielle! I'm solidly happy. That's a fabulous thing.

Why do guys keep giving me reasons to hate them?

Like really. If you say you'll call, call. If you say you'll text, so text. Is it really this hard?

There's a Kanye song that springs to mind..

"Hey hey hey hey.. don't say you will..unless you will..then play you will..I pray you will.."

Urk. Men.

I think I just need a fresh start. A new guy; not an old one. 

Footy boy and I went on a "date" last night.. the chemistry was amazing. It was all very cute. He even texted me 5 minutes after leaving my place to tell me what a fab night he had.. and he had said he would message me..maybe come see me today.. but yeah he didn't, no surprises there! I'm glad I wasn't fooling myself this time around. I am a bit disappointed.. as if you couldn't tell.

He's messaging me now though, only because I initiated. I was feeling restless. I'd rather just do it to get what I want. 

But I never get what I want..

Anyways. I had to vent. Now back to positive-ness. 5 positive things: I am happy that I'm not holding my breath on this one like usual. I'm happy I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket, like usual. I am happy that I didn't throw myself at him, like usual. I am happy that I held back, unlike the usual. I am happy that the guards have stayed up. 

They must stay up for this one. He's not wriggling he's way back in again without a fight!

Note to Prince Charming: I am still waiting.

hehe.

Feeling positive.

Positive 

Positive

Positive

   !

Saw the shrink today. Feeling much better. The past 2 weeks I have been so out of touch with everything..I think the whole FS bizo put me so outta wack.. I have finally sorted it out in my mind. I do miss him. And I really resented the fact that I did.. And I think it held me back from really processing it all.. So it hit me this week..! And since I had nothing planned last night I had a lot of time to really have a big think. It's ok to miss him. It's normal. And it's also normal to get over it. So I will, and Ima do it classy! Gonna get my hair my nails my eyebrows done next week.. Dr Crazy will be back from Boston next week..so my PIC (partner in crime) will be back and ready for action!!

Can't wait..