ToyBoy and I had a little chat last week after we found out we couldn't see each other due to his work.. it made me have a really HUUUGE think about everything and it gave me time to come to terms with the fact that this relationship may not work. And although that sucks, it's reality, and shit happens.
So when we finally got to chatting, I got a little choked up and a little speechless..he cottoned on straight away and was like "what's wrong baby what's with the hrmms and yeahs..?"
So I just blurted it all out..
I told him the age worries me, I told him that I don't know where this is heading, and if it's heading no where I don't want to waste anyone's time, told him that I don't want to shove all of my wants and needs onto him because I'm older...He assured me he wants to take it slow..but it is going in the boyfriend/girlfriend direction.. (!) and he was also like..."sweetie you're 24..I know you had an ideal of where you wanted to be at this age but you're still so young..don't sweat this stuff, it will just happen"
So now I'm feeling mucho mejor!
And I think it's brought us a little closer. We both know what we want and the clarity has made me put the guards down and trust him a little.
And so this weekend now we are going to spend together...I'm planning a little picnic and cricket on Sunday which he will be very happy about and I think I'm going to buy him some cologne for Christmas..
So much to look forward to.
xx
Great to see you blogging again. All it takes is having a boy in your life and you find inspiration I guess =P
ReplyDeleteHe sounds very wise for his age. That whole pickup on the "idea of where you wanted to be" thing.. don't worry about age. Maturity is more important.
I agree with ScoMan. I've dated men who were children at 40 - and then wide old souls at 26. Stay true to YOU and keep us posted! :)
ReplyDeleteI agree with the comments above this one, maturity is definitely more important and as long as your both happy nothing else matters. Happy Holidays! Lovely blog!
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