So there was a montage going on at the end of one of the episodes with a song that touched me.
The words got me thinking. . .
"..Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find
Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone.."
This song is so damn true.
Where the fuck is my soulmate?
Maybe I already know my soulmate?
Maybe I have no fancy for him at all. It figures.
When I'm looking, I don't find him.
I get told.."Don't look for him, he will come to you"
I stop looking.
I've stopped for months.
He's not here.
Where is he?
People are so quick to offer there opinions and advice. Of course it's okay for them to talk. They're married..engaged..have a boyfriend. They're not going to be single and alone anytime soon. It's so fucking annoying.
I'm not meaning to come off like all I care about is having a boyfriend. I don't mean to be. But it's something that makes me happy.
And it's been 3 long years.
And it also makes me feel like there's something wrong with me. I know there isn't anything wrong with me. I feel I've grown so much in these past 3 years of being single and dating. I've done some really fucking stupid things, made so many mistakes..and learnt from them. I've discovered it's not all about me anymore. It's about really putting time and effort in and not taking anything for granted. And all I want to do is take all that knowledge and apply it to somebody special and give them the best of me. There is definitely nothing wrong with that is there?
And what is it with people who think getting married young and wanting to settle is so bad?
I was raised by my grandparents who showed me that love can last forever. To compromise, to give your all. They married at 21-22. It ended when my grandfather passed away. My grandmother had said a few things to me about the hardships of the relationship. But she had always always emphasized how important love is. And sacrifice. And all the amazing things that come with it. She told me she had lost her best friend. I want to feel that way about my partner. As if he's my best friend. Someone there through thick and thin.
But anyways, I'm just really a traditionalist at heart. I love the whole ideal. I want a man to take care of me. Fuck feminism. Hah.
What's wrong with that?
nothing..that's what i thought..
Okay, so married people, engaged people and people dating give you the shits when they offer advice.. but what about those of us who choose to be single forever?
ReplyDeleteSurely we have some grand insight into what love is, and how it can be acheived, even though we have no idea what it is to love someone like that.
That's what I thought. You want my advice and you want it bad.
My advice is simple. Never give up. Keep looking. If you don't look, how can you find? You are a wonderful person (to keep putting up with my shit you have to be) and one day you'll make some man very lucky.
My advice is to pray about it. That's from another singleton who's still waiting.
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