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I'm watching the finale of Sex & The City - the one where Carrie finally ends up with Big. It's making me sad.

I think we all have our own "Big" sometime through our lives. My "Big" was Ute Boy. I meshed with him so well. But now that I'm past Ute boy, "Big" now resembles Boat Boy. I know it was only a week and a half long relationship.. but everything we had felt so right. Like it was completely meant to be. We wanted the same things for the future..same dreams..same needs. I'm trying to come to the understanding that he was doing the right thing by me by not stringing me along. But it hurts so badly. I don't know if I could call it love.. but it was coming close. Everything was travelling so fast..but it was still feeling..really really..incredibly right. 

He texted me yesterday out of the blue - to see how I was and if I were okay. I wasn't sure how to react..I tried to keep my cool.. I told him I was fine. I asked him how he was. He gave me this long text back about how he's had a quiet New Year and stuff.. Then asked me how mine has been. I didn't go all emo..I rattled on about how my NYE was quiet, but my Field Day was "Freakin amazing, had such a great time, glad I didn't give my ticket up (I was going to give my ticket up to spend New Years day with him.) 

I didn't get a reply.

I was doing so well up until I got that text. 

I had another cry whilst watching "An American in Paris Part Deux"

Why would he message me. Does he miss me? Or is he just making sure I'm ok to make him feel better about dumping me..?

Or maybe I'm just doing alot of over thinking because I'm by myself.

I think it could just be the latter.