Right now I have so many things going on.. Things beginning, things coming to a standstill, and things ending.
Im so unsure where to go at this point. Friendships are failing; others are strengthening. (Is that a word?) My friendship with "Selfish Snob" has been sorted out, only after a few agressive phone calls..im glad I can hold onto our friendship..but I have come to the realisation how truly different we have become.. And how im not really a fan of these changes. Its different. And its a shame. I've rekindled a lost friendship with an old friend whom I'll call "Lainie"..who I actually met via "Selfish Snob" and got along with famously due to our dry humour, bossiness and vain. We're going through the same things at the moment, so I think we'll do each other a world of good. And company for Field Day and Good Vibrations.
My relationship with Dentist boy is at a standstill..maybe in my head...maybe in reality. We had another fight after the one I originally blogged about which lead me to think that I deserved better. I ended up defending myself and now having done so has made the boy drop back a bit I think. Being treated like shit and taking it is one thing, but being spoken to like crap, defending myself and not taking it, then being being treated like this is another. I don't blame the boy; I called him a whiny selfish baby in pretty much those words, told him if I wanted a child to look after I'd go get myself pregnant..um yeah I know pretty tactless.. But he expects me to drop every thing for him even when he's already told me he's too busy..that's not fair. And after our chat we went back to our normally silly selves again, kisses, cuddles, hand holding. It felt stronger at that point. I was happy. And then.. A change. No messages..no calls..no x's on the end of the few messages I have received (yes, text interpretation is a dangerous thing) and now..I feel like its either playing dormant or close to the finish line.. And it doesn't feel good.
Im crying out for some stability! It could just be my raging PMS though.. hoping for a clearer mind next week..and some text messages from the boy with x's on the end..
P.S I'l regale you about Melbourne later.
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Well, you know how highly I think of you, so I don't think you deserve to be treated like or spoken to like crap.
ReplyDeleteIf he won't treat you like a princess, move on and find your prince.
But I'm glad you fixed things with the snob.
So proud of you for standing up for yourself! Good for you for not making excuses for him and accepting it. Just let it all unfold how it's supposed to... you're doing a good job of standing your ground and being fair to yourself and to him so keep it up.
ReplyDeleteI think you did the right thing. I called an ex-boyfriend a whining baby too, what's more, I said "aww, poor me, don't argue with me or I'll cry" (imitating a lil' kid's voice)! hahah, he got pissed off that night :P
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